Making peace with perfection

For a good long while I've wanted to start a blogging business. My main 9-5 gig is in digital marketing for a $40 billion company so I definitely have the confidence to say that I know what I'm doing in this space. I lead a healthy lifestyle, it's picturesque and there's a lot of good style, adventure and beauty going on pretty much everyday. Bottom line: there's good content there and I know how to market (aka monetize it). But something has been holding me back! And I finally realized what it was the other day: perfectionism. Part of me is totally terrified of not being perfect. 

I am really interested in this whole layering smoothie thing that's taking over Instagram lately. I'd pretty much put my whole life in a Vitamix if I could so I love the idea of coming up with new - super healthy and jacked up - recipes. So I set out to create one of my own. I took a little mix of Goop, Alison Wu and Purely Kaylie and made an awesome combo of cashew cream and nice dream and layered them up! 

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At first, though, because they layers weren't all perfect and I didn't have these crazy toppings for it (like dragon fruit balls and fruit cut into star shapes) I was seriously questioning whether or not I should post this thing. I mean What. The. Eff. The struggle is real! I was actually questioning the worthiness of a picture of a smoothie. OMG. Just typing that makes me cringe. Because the thing is Goop has a staff of food stylists and Alison and Kaylie's full time job is Instagram - so I'm kind of in a different ball park right now and it's easy to get intimidated! Plus this was my first attempt at this EVER so I was feeling a little vulnerable about the whole thing. It feels easy to judge myself when every other image is edited to the moon and back.

So - I'm trying to turn over a new leaf with my blogging venture and Instagram life - loosen the reigns a little bit - allow things to be more 'real' and less 'staged'. Celebrate how freakin' raw life is - because in my opinion that's what really connects us. The rawness of this whole experience. 

A celebrity that I follow on the gram posted a pic of herself crying in bed last Sunday. She was just overcome and couldn't do it - and felt sad and worn down. It was my favorite thing she's ever posted! So there is realness in the madness - the tides are turning and who knows, maybe I can help the momentum and together we can all help social media be a little less perfect.